Eyes on the Prize

It has been a long time since I used this blog. I have been all over lately. I have been trying to do too many things at once. I have been focusing on nothing and dabbled in everything in my life these past few months. I need to keep my eyes on the prize. What I mean is try to become more focused/organized/simplified. This might be simple for most people,but when everyone & thing in your life is moving a million miles an hour and you are going at a snails pace it is beyond tough.
3+ years and I feel like sometimes I am trying to keep up. I know I cannot,but I still do. It is like rehab. After this long I am aware of things I need to do and I understand my body so much more ,but I don't do what I should. I eat healthy,get a decent amount of sleep,exercise...some.
Rehab and school are going well,but I feel they could be going better...Mentally,physically,emotionally.. I need to keep my eyes on the prize...overall health/rehab & graduating.

Anyway, on May 22nd(only took me a month) some friends & I walked a 5k for Brain tumor research...etc.(Path to Progress)I was a great time and I am very happy/thankful for friends & family support! We raised over 1,000! Very cool,but what was not cool was the course being closed and everyone going home! Haha! I only got in 2 miles! Next year will be different!

Road 2 Recovery

My "road to recovery" Is not a familiar road like the one you grew up on it. It is more similar to one of those roads when you are lost & you re thinking "where the hell am I"? It is full of twists,turns,bump,detours,stops for numerous reasons & etc. You look @ a map in order to get yourself back to your destination. You are no longer lost,but you are on a completely different road/route. Point "A" to point "B" is much different.

Ok...Maybe a bad example,but it makes sense to me!
For the last few weeks I have thought about how my "Road 2 Recovery" has become a part of my life. Some people that have a traumatic event in life happen may "give up"because progress is taking too long. Recovery is maintenance or life long. Reluctantly, I have realized this. Recovery is a word in which some people feel is temporary. I have had some "friends"/ acquaintances that have asked me "are you better"? Kinda makes me laugh.I guess I know what they meant,but I am slowly getting "better" @ many aspects of life post tumor removal. My "Road 2 Recovery" is similar to the road I was talking about in the second sentence of the first paragraph & I plan/hope on having it become more like the road I am familiar with.

I have been slacking on my rehab lately,but it is not all laziness. It is school. My classes are interesting,but I have reading out the wazoo?
I cannot slack too much on the rehab now though,because a very nice lady I met @ rehab was widowed recently.Her husband was an engineer & made some sweet parallel bars that he once used. Long story made short They are now mine! I have lots of equipment for rehab,now I have almost everything I need! When I use up all my rehab visits that insurance allows I can do all my rehab here. The only issue is that I am a all over the place. I spend two weeks @ my Moms & two @ my Dads. I cant take the bars with me! The one measily hour I get a week @ rehab to use the bars is not nearly enough.I think & hope something as simple as these bars may help my independence/recovery so I can somehow be on my own or with a roommate one day. Until then those bars will get a hard workout!